It's crazy how heavy and time consuming it feels getting anywhere with Mateo. Gotta carry the kid of course, but also the diaperbag, and my waterbottle because it's 99 Degrees out, and HIS waterbottle because it's 99degrees. Wait no, just leave his, let him drink out of yours. Ok perfect, now grab the keys and the wallet, and your phone because the phone is your lifeline. Wait no, maybe I should leave it in the van so I can just focus on him. But wait what if he does something really cute and I want to send a video to everyone? Ok Fine I'll take my phone but leave it in the diaperbag. Ok OK now we're heading into the library.
But today I felt like a feather. I was of course carrying wallet, keys, waterbottle in hand, but I had arrived in our much smaller Fiesta '13, didn't have a little creature to follow around or carry, and didn't have any worries, since both him and Joe were at home taking a nap. HURRAH Summer Break!
I headed in wanting to find an autobiography. "I want to learn something new." And this is part of me at the moment. I want to DO something. Perhaps is the commodity that has settled into my life. Parenting a small, walking, almost talking, 16month old is just the norm now. I feel like I need a new challenge. and I want it to be a BIG challenge. I want to CHANGE the world.
I was musing with these thoughts today... never in my life have I had a strong urge to do SOMETHING AMAZING. But now it's like when you start craving that cream cheese bagel. You can have a cream cheese sandwich, or even a great quesadilla... but it doesn't take that craving away.
I think part of it is reading. Reading motivates me in an odd way. It makes me want to be a writer that publishes a book, or someone that studies a masters and then does something and then has a reason to write a book.
And so when I was perusing the shelves of books, I was surprised to randomly see Mindy Kaling's book and to be drawn to it.
Maybe it's because I fell asleep watching The Office last night and I was thinking of how Mindy Kaling got to be an actress when she's not really all that great. Maybe it's because it was the first Autobiography I saw after seeing dozens of self help books about being fat... either way I picked it up. I also grabbed another two which I will hopefully read.
2 hours later I was done with this book. Again not a book I'd recommend, and I have to admit I probably skimmed like 20 of its pages... but once again it motivated me!
She talks a lot. It doesn't read like she's writing. It reads like she's talking. And she goes on and on... and actually she's quite funny, 5+ times I laughed out loud seriously. But it's all quite superficial banter... she talks about having to tan, or about having a crush on a guy, or about wanting to fit in... it did bore me in various places.
But something that really scratched me was how well she knows herself. Would I be able to write a book about myself? A WHOLE book, without preservations, or worry? Do I know myself that well?
She also finishes the book talking about how success is definitely earned. You must WORK HARD for it.
I think part of me still wishes something will come along and help me DO SOMETHING. But that last chapter is good stuff.
So just in case you were going to judge my entry on the title, I hope you didn't. Even a celebrity autobiography book has a lot to teach you about yourself if you let it.
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